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Post-Reality
05:02
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When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself.
I just keep it to myself.
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself.
To myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself.
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself.
To myself
I don't know why, I just do it.
I just do it.
I don't know why, I just do it.
I just do it.
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Freaks
06:18
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Freaks
by Eli Lary
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"Freaks is a song about people's perception of me and how it affects my ego. The "Freaks" are the people who I see as people who are trying to harm me. It's a negative thing to look at people like that. Like as though their entire existence is evil and out to get you. It's something I find myself doing a lot. Most people are good people who have just done bad things. This song is me conveying that feeling of hatred towards them but it's also a parody of myself for feeling that way. I recognize that it's the wrong thing to feel, but I still feel it. Simultaneously, the song is about how I am also the person who treats others wrong and potentially make them feel as though I am the Freak. I have a lot of memories of myself sitting in the back seat of a car, thinking to myself about the regret I feel over treating someone in a way that would make me feel awful if I was treated that way."
- Eli Lary
lyrics
Freaks
All around me
I am what I be
Nothing's ever free
I exist, but just to please
Show me how to be
Everything you wanted me to be
I realize that nothing's ever free
Nothing's ever free
Freaks
All around me
Show me how to be
Nothing's ever free
Don't take it out on the one you love
It can be pretty hard through the push and shove
Who am I to try and be the man above
I got more than the man that you think you're sick of
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Imma kill a bitch who can't feel me, no
I am but a man who can't see through, no
All of my mind is just an empty skull
Stabbed in my eye, I can't see at all
Imma kill a bitch who can't feel me, no
I am but a man who can't see through, no
All of my mind is just an empty skull
Stabbed in my eye, I can't see at all
In the back seat
Running through my head
In the back seat
I'm wishing I was dead
In the back seat
I know what I said
In the back seat
I hate what I said
In the back seat
I wanna kiss you instead
In the back seat
That's not what I meant
In the back seat
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Crumbling
04:35
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Crumbling
by Eli Lary
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"Crumbling is the sonic explanation of delusion, where you're watching and feeling your reality crumble around you. You're delusional, which means that nearly all information is contrary to what you're experiencing. Things are becoming harder for you to understand and cope with and you begin to question your own reality as though you're in The Truman Show. You begin to feel as though the people around you, even the ones you care about, aren't there to help you and allowing them to help you is only going to cause you harm."
- Eli Lary
lyrics
These are, um, odd ideas, for the most part, and they're, um, held onto tenaciously despite evidence to the contrary
Despite evidence to the contrary
Despite evidence to the contrary
Despite evidence to the contrary
Despite evidence to the contrary
Despite evidence to the contrary
Despite evidence to the contrary
Delusional
All of these ideas are, uh, delusional
A year later
I started walking down the street and people would threaten me
A year later
I started walking down the street and people would threaten me
A year later
I started walking down the street and people would threaten me
A year later
I started walking down the street and people would threaten me
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4. |
Kissing to Kill Time
04:27
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Survive
05:01
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Oh, oh, oh, oh
Feels like, feels like, feels like, feels like
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Feels like, feels like, feels like, feels like
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
I can't
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
Like it stirs in your mind, mind, mind, mind
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
I can't
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
Like it stirs in your
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
I can't
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
Like it stirs in your mind, mind, mind, mind
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
I can't
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
Like it stirs in your mind, mind, mind, mind
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
Haha
I don't really know how to feel anymore
I don't really wanna know anymore
I don't really wanna do this shit anymore
I don't really wanna live anymore
Where do I really go from here
Everybody wanna know if I'm queer
Everybody wanna know if I got that, if I got that, if I, if I got that
Everybody wanna know
Everybody know
I just wanna know
I don't really know
I just wanna go home
Thinking everybody knows who I am
Thinking everybody knows that I can
Can't get fucking off of fucking Instagram
I can't stop thinking, I can't stop thinking
If I'm really a man, If I'm really a man
If I'm, If I'm, If I'm, fuck
I can't pull myself away
Even though I know you do me wrong
I can't pull myself away
Even though I know you do, do
It's ten feet of snow
I can't pull myself away
Even though I know you do me
I, I, I can't pull myself away
Even though I know you do me wrong
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
I can't
Throughout this storm, I'll survive
Like it stirs in your mind, mind, mind, mind
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Feels like, Feels like, Feels like, Feels like
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Calling My Name
03:48
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Task force warns nation to get ready for riots
And to get ready for martial law
And to get ready for concentration camps, this is in the first press
Demons are calling my name
I wish I wasn't insane
Speak up, what is you saying
I'm a demon
I'm a demon
Demons are calling my name
I wish I wasn't insane
Speak up, what is you saying
Speak up, what is you s-, what is you s
Demons are calling my name
I wish I wasn't insane
Speak up, what is you saying
Speak up, what is you saying
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7. |
Things That Fall Apart
05:46
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When I look
Up
Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-baby, no, lord, I know
Yes, it's summer
How many million miles
Woah, no
Oh, lord
How many miles
How many miles
How many miles
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you
I've been thinking 'bout you
I've been thinking 'bout you, you, you, you
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This
05:33
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IT'S A BOY!
07:52
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Will You Think About Me?
03:52
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It's too bad people can't retain any, er, gain any wisdom and realize
"Oh, it's just another thing"
But people get all upset, you know
They think "oh, we gotta stop it now and wait"
If I let you go, will you think about me
If I let you know, will think about me
If I blow it all, will think about me
If I stop thinking, is it still reality
If I let you go, will you think about me
If I let you know, will think about me
If I blow it off, will think about me
If I stop thinking, is it reality
Wait
I don't really know myself
If I am myself, am I really myself
Am I myself if I'm myself anymore
I don't really know
I don't really care
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11. |
Freaks (Reprise)
04:16
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Freaks
All around me
I am what I be
Nothing's ever free
I exist, but just to please
Show me how to be
Everything you wanted me to be
I realize that nothing's ever free
Nothing's ever free
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Don't take it out on the one you love
It can be pretty hard through the push and shove
Who am I to try and be the man above
I got more than the man that you think you're sick of
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
I am what I be
Nothing's ever free
I exist, but just to please
Show me how to be
Everything you wanted me to be
I realize that nothing's ever free
Nothing's ever free
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me
I am what I be
Nothing's ever free
I exist, but just to please
Show me how to be
Everything you wanted me to be
I realize that nothing's ever free
Nothing's ever free
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Freaks
All around me, around me
Don't take it out on the one you love
It can be pretty hard through the push and shove
Who am I to try and be the man above
I got more than the man that you think you're sick of
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
Freaks
All around me
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When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
I just keep it to myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
I just keep it to myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
I just keep it to myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
I just keep it to myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
When I'm sad, I just keep it to myself
To myself
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Survive (Emael Remix)
03:19
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2022
04:28
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Eli Lary Portland, Oregon
Portland, Oregon
Experimental Electronic
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